In my first serious relationship, I found myself caught up in a strange and unexpected dynamic. I would often set up profiles on dating apps, not for myself, but for him. It might sound odd, but I was genuinely excited about the idea of him connecting with other women. It wasn’t about jealousy; in fact, quite the opposite. I got a thrill out of hearing him recount his dates with other girls while we were together, especially when we were intimate. The thought of him with someone else ignited something in me, and even watching him interact with another girl stirred up a powerful arousal within me. It was a peculiar aspect of our relationship that I couldn’t quite explain, but it was undeniably real.